But how do you know?

These last couple of weeks have been really hard for me.  I've been struggling with whether or not MC is the place that I'm supposed to spend the rest of collegiate career.  So many people "know" that this is where they're supposed to be and I thought so too upon first attending.  As the weeks have gone by I have not found myself loving it more and more like most, but getting much more homesick.  So, I'm wondering if it because I'm not trying hard enough or if this just isn't the place for me.

Pray about it - I know.  Much easier said than done.  You can pray about something all you want but it doesn't mean that you're going to hear an audible voice saying "go here" or "do this."  And this is kind of where I'm stuck.  I guess that if I'm supposed to be somewhere else the doors will open for me and the ones here will close.  Then I wonder if I'm closing the doors on MC. 

I've been so worried about doing the wrong thing lately that I'm stressing out way to much.  So, I'm trying to just take everyday at a time and not worry about things.  I know that whatever happens it's going to turn out okay, but I'm still worried that I'm going to make the wrong decision and it's going to change my entire life.  So, if you have any advice on what I should do I'd be more than open to hearing it. 

Habitat for Humanity

I volunteered at Habitat for Humanity today and it was definitely not what I thought.  I knew that I was going to have to work hard - which I definitely did!  I knew that it was going to be pretty hot and sunny, but it wasn't to bad.  The only thing that surprised me were the other people working.  

The other volunteers, including Kim and Tristyn (whom I promised to mention) : ), were all very friendly and easy to work with.  They are what made the time go by quicker.  But, the "official" people, the ones in the yellow Habitat shirts, were not as friendly as I expected.  They weren't mean, just a little rude.  This really surprised me.  They just talked downward to me, like I was a child who was incapable of tying my shoe.  I don't mind helping out at all, but they treated me like I didn't know which side of the hammer to use.

I understand they get many volunteers who don't know what they're doing, but it was just the way they spoke to me that kind of bothered me.  Aside from that though, I did enjoy it.  It made it worth while when actually talking to the people who were going to be living in the house.  Habitat builds the houses for people who are living in sub-standard conditions - not the homeless.  The people they build the houses for must be employed and able to pay a certain amount, and also spend 200-300 hours working on the house.  So, the future homeowners are actually out there working as well.  They are so thankful for all and any help building their new home and this is what made it worth while.  

2 Blogs in one day? Unheard of.

I really don't know why I am writing again. Possibly because I'm bored and there is nothing else to do.  I've already organized, re-organized, vacuumed and dusted my dorm. I've been busy until now.  So, I guess I'll just write what has been on my mind lately.

It's been about 2 weeks since my purse was stolen and although that caused me a little trouble, it made me realize a few things.  I had to live for a week with no cash, no credit card, and no debit card.  This made me realize how insignificant material possessions are.  Sure there were some things I wanted to buy that week (gum, diet coke :), etc...), but nothing that I really needed.  I did just fine and even though I have my cards and cash back, I've only bought groceries once and it was the least amount I've spent on groceries since I've been here.

The whole experience made me realize how wasteful and unappreciative people have come to be.  Not all people, maybe just me.  But, if there was something that I could learn from the situation, it is just to not take anything for granted.  Be thankful for every minute you get to spend with somebody, be thankful every time somebody helps you out, and just everything that happens in your life - the good and the bad.  That's easier said than done and as cliche' as it is, so I hate what I'm about to say but it's true, everything happens for a reason.  The reason will be unveiled eventually. 

So, how's school?

Midterms already?! I cannot believe how quickly we have reached this point.  I remember looking at my calender in the beginning of the year and thinking how it was going to be SO LONG until my first "holiday." It seems like almost yesterday we were moving in and had nothing to do.  These last few weeks have flown by so quickly that it really scares me.

This makes me think that if this time in my life, which in the broad view of things, is not very busy, flew by this quickly, how fast are things going to go when I get really busy?  So, this made me wonder why I was going to go home this weekend? All I was going to do was visit people, never get rest, or get anything done.  I was home last weekend so I'm not very homesick and referring back to one of my first blogs, I said that I just didn't quite feel home at MC yet, but that feeling has changed quite a bit. I really like it here, so that's why I am staying over fall break-my first real "holiday." 

I'm using my time here this weekend while campus is pretty uneventful to be productive-to take time to be appreciative of everything.  Tomorrow I am going to volunteer at Habitat for Humanity and I'm really excited. I know technically that's not "relaxing", it's going to be hard work, but it's making good use of the free time that I have on my hands.  There is no homework, no tests to study for, nothing for rush, so why not use my time to help others.  I'm pretty excited about tomorrow, so I'll try to blog about it as soon as I get finished!